oblivious
by SHELENE
“你最大的勇敢不是去爱他，是去相爱。你最大的坚强，也不是跟他在一起，而是离开他。“
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I realised over the years that I wasn't being heartless or cruel towards others. I was being heartless towards myself, my own feelings. Not loving isn't the saddest thing. The saddest thing is to stop loving because you know you can't afford the pain. And instead, you choose to avoid. To ignore and to pretend that you don't and can't love when you obviously is, in the inside. Being unable to hear or see isn't the cruelest thing. It's pretending to not see, or not to hear when you have the ability to do so.
The worst is when you see someone suffering, and you choose to ignore their pain instead of offering to help just to lessen your own pain. By being selfish, to acknowledge your own pain instead of someone else's. Just because the rest couldn't see your pain.
Hmm, but I guess that's just how the world works. Everyone's too selfish, too blinded to look for the good in people. We blame, criticise and ostracise too often. We only realise and be thankful for the people and things we have around us when we lose something. Or when we fall. Truth to be told, we don't even realise or thank the people that were always around us to hold us back up when we fall. When they're gone, we cry. We scream for help. And then we realise who were truly the ones that were there for us. They might not be people that we like. We spend so much time chasing after people to like us, when we fail to appreciate the people that we didn't like but still, they were the people that were willing to help us.
